Are you a seeker? I do not know. The only person that can answer that question is you. A seeker is normally defined as a religious or non-religious person who seeks to find their spirituality. Based upon this definition you will have to make the determination as to if you are a seeker or not. I always suggest to people for one week say that you are a seeker. And if you feel like finding answers go and search. Then the following week state you are not a seeker. Do not do any research into anything spiritual. Do not practice any religion except of an organized religion in a physical church/synagogue/mosque. Then compare the two weeks. Which felt natural to you? Which fed your soul with what you were craving. Which week left you feeling as if something was missing?
I am religious, Christian. I will be using the Christian faith as a basis when I refer to an organized religion. I mean no disrespect to any other organized religion by not using them as reference. This is the religion that I know intimately and I can readily make references. But when I refer to the Christian religion or the Bible, any religion or religious holy book can be substituted for the sentence.
You may be saying right now, “I am a religious person. I go to church all the time. I read the Bible.” Being religious and being spiritual are two different things. Being religious is being able to quote the Bible, and going to Church all the time. It also means bringing your organized Church mandated religion to others. It could mean reading and studying the Bible all the time. It could mean a lot of things to a lot of different people. But this is the good side of being religious.
The negative side of religion is vast. It is when a person says they are religious yet they look down on the poor unwed mothers of this country. It is when a Christian tells a homeless person they are lazy and to get a job. It is when a Priest sexually abuses a child. This list goes on and on. You can probably name quite a few yourself. The point is that these people know their holy books, they go to Church but they only say the words. They only make a show in public. They are not spiritual people. They do not understand the words nor the meaning of their holy books.
Spirituality normally has a very vague definition. It normally is defined as “having to do with the spirit”. My personal definition is much different. I believe that every entity on this earth was granted a divine spark of life. I believe that religion is a way to understand this divine spark. I believe that spirituality is an action verb. I believe that spirituality is the cultivation and the growth of this divine spark within us. I believe that when we use this divine spark within us to understand or even to help we should call it spiritual work. I believe that whenever we use this divine spark with an action verb it is spiritual in nature. Hopefully, this definition helps to differentiate religious versus spiritual.
Can a person be religious and find their spirituality in organized religion? Yes they can. Many people have. There are lists of the various saints in all of the organized religions. But lately people are turning away from organized religion to find their own brand of spirituality. A spirituality that makes sense to them. I know I did.
Before you leave organized religion, I suggest you try to make a connection using different methods. There is always the possibility that you are not making a connection with your religious leader and or that church. If you are in this situation then make an appointment with your church elders and discuss your feelings. Consider going to religious counseling within your church.
If that does not work and you are unable to make a spiritual connection with your religion then consider another religion. I always suggest to people to research all of the main religions and then visit the various churches/synagogues/mosque. Read the religious books for that religion. You should pick the religion that you understand and makes sense to you. You should always pick a church that feels like home and family. Don’t give up hope, it is out there.
An organized religion is very important to a family. As we have a family (mom, dad, son, daughter), we also have an extended family (aunt, uncle, grandparent, etc.). Most people though do not realize that we also have a community family. In this technological age our community family is mainly comprised of our organized religion, schools, and work.
It takes a village to raise a family. So it is essential to keep connections with your community family through either religion, schools and or work.
Good luck on your quest.